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It's only the tenth day of the second month of the year and already I feel like I've been through so much. I try to take one day at a time, but sometimes several days attack me at once. But it's okay, because I know I will soldier on. That's what I do, I soldier on.

Noticed anything new around here? That's right, new layout and color scheme. Again. I don't know what it is with me and my need to constantly change everything. I was perfectly fine with my old layouts, until I wasn't. I'm looking forward to the time I won't feel compelled to change it every month or so. It took less than two weeks before I got tired of the old one; let's see how long this one will last...

Later tonight I will meet up with my closest friends from high school to visit the wake of our classmate and friend's dad. Death always reminds us of our mortality, our temporary stay here on Earth, that it forces us to stop and evaluate how we have lived our lives so far. Are we happy? Have we lived our lives the best way we could? If Death will call upon us tonight, will we be ready?

Am I happy?

Right now, I'm neither here nor there. I'm not happy happy, but I'm not unhappy either. I don't know what it is with this month; there is even a running joke at the office that the reason why we all feel this way is because February = emo. Coincidence or not, I know I could really use some happy thoughts these days.

Or maybe I just need a major shake-up. I've become too complacent in my comfort zone, happily lazing away in my safety bubble, that I've already failed to notice that, hey, life is passing me by. I'm almost 26 years old yet I don't have much to show for it.

SNAP. I should snap out of these thoughts.

I need a drink. Or Skittles. Or both.

"The artist's job is not to succumb to despair but to find an antidote for the emptiness of existence." - Gertrude Stein, from the movie Midnight in Paris